Over You by Chris Daughtry

OVER YOU
Chris Daughtry

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,

I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Training in Mandarin Oriental

Last October 29 and 30, I attended a technical training in Mandarin Oriental...

Yeah, you read it right, October 29... i somewhat reported for work na rin on a holiday, such a kill-joy talaga... all along i thought i could have a loong weekend already just like anybody else but I was not able to... no choice eh...

the training was about Requirements Analysis (A UML Use Case Approach) Course... whoa!!! too technical you might say... but i enjoyed it and i really learned a lot and was already thinking on how i can apply it in my work.

but more than the training I enjoyed the food... morning snack was scheduled every 1030am to think that the training starts at 9am... then after two hours, we will have lunch and then after 2 hours, we will have the afternoon snack...

by the way, of course the company will not send me to a training without them benefitting from it... so in exchange to that external training I am obliged to stay in the company for 5 more months, if not i will be paying the full amount of the training...

to top it all... it was a nice experience... i was physically and mentally full for those past two days... pero sana naman, my next training would be able to push through in New World, i heard the food there is buffet... hehehe...

My New Baby...

actually, it is not that new, it has been almost a month now since i got my new baby.... and i really love this new baby of mine.... when i saw it, i knew that we were meant for together...

so without further ado, let me introduce you to my new baby....

MY NEW PHONE

yes, i am officially announcing it already... i got a new phone... well it has been almost a month now since i got this new phone... and so far so good, i am enjoying it, we are both having fun together...

i needed to retire my old phone already since i had been using it since march of 2004, so we've been like together for four years now... and i knew that it was time to get a new one even if enrollment for my brother's second sem was fast approaching.... AH! i still got to buy a new phone!!!

at first i wanted to get an iphone... but i was afraid that even if i got it hacked, bka eventually masira din at masayang lang pera ko... so i got this one instead... originally, it's 27950... but since im not able to pay it in full, i paid a percent in cash and the rest, i used my mom's credit card, so lumalabas, the phone costs 29450....

what the heck sabi ko, i want it... though i was still having second thoughts, kasi il just add a few thousands, i would be able to get a Treo or a new PDA phone... pero cge na nga, nabuksan na nung clerk ung phone i dont have any choice na...

besides, Treo or PDA phones do not have a good camera as this... my phone has 3.2 mp, not bad, right?

it also comes with a 1GB memory, not bad na rin, kasi i have my laptop naman, so I can always transfer files to it....

kaso ang bad trip lang....
- i found out that in greenhills it only costs 23K something....
- and a friend of mine bought an iPhone over ebay.ph for only 23K
- the bro-in-law of my sis is selling an iPhone for only 23K...

sabi ko na nga ba eh... i should have waited for a while... pero nah, iphone only has 2MP, u cant use all of its features since they are configured for US' use... also, by next year they will be releasing the 2nd generation of the said phone... so okay na rin... hehehe...

and besides, i get to listen to MP3s and watch movies in my phone, so almost the same features na rin, un nga lang, iphone has more storage capacity... :)

if you want to check the other cool features of my phone... you can visit the following sites:
Cnet Asia Review and Sony Ericsson P1i.

for now... im happy with my phone... this is an early birthday gift to myself already... mmmuah!!!

Bowling Game - Finals

Last November 3, our company had its Finals for our Bowling game... And luckily our team made it to the Top 6 teams... This time I made it a point to go there early and not be late, of course, me 20 points deduction na ang late eh, hehee...

anyway, the team practiced, and I was able to get 160... and so the games started, i was part of the first 5... first few frames were good... but i dont know what happened, pumangit ung laro ko... i was only able to get 109. haaaay, syempre with that score, i can no longer play the second game...

luckily, the mas mataas pa ung score ko sa pumalit sa akin... so i was able to play during the third game... luckily, there was an improvement, i got 128... but still not my day... kung tutuusin, i got 160 during my practice eh... haaaay....

but our team made it to the top 4... how? we didnt know either... since okay na rin ung laro ko, nakapaglaro ako for the finals... again, the first few throws were okay... but all of a sudden, pumangit na ung bato ko... cguro pagod na ako... unfortunately our team did not make it to the top 3... haaaay...

here are my scores for the entire season....

Bowling Game

i joined our bowling games for our sportsfest... and i belonged to the team of our support group, and hell, i was surprised that they are really good... and they joined to compete not just to have fun... seryoso kung seryoso... they are really aiming for a certain point to make it to the semis and eventually to the finals....


whoa!!! pressure.... and i only average 140 points... whoa!!!! what the heck, i will still play and just enjoy it... at least i get to play for free, hehehe...

for the first week, i played two games, i scored 150 and 143...
2nd week was my weakest, (because i was sick then pero cge laro pa rin, hehehe...), i got 111...
3rd week, was able to redeem myself, i only played once but i got 146...

not bad... at least im almost halfway the perfect score of the game...

still have two more weeks of playing hopefully we make it to the semis....

And So I Thought....

whew.... finally!!! the unending worries are over... because of the stress from work, the looong hours stay at work, the problematic project i had, i had a recurring fever for three days... ito pa, i only get a fever during nights... and so i think, the pain im experiencing everytime I swallow was just caused by the stress i was having...

i rested... but it is still recurring... i was damn-worried that the sickness I had months ago came back... and again, i was really worried... here we go again... i never learned my lesson talaga.... why do i need to go thru it again?...

i told myself, inde yan.. it is just sore throat... pero it still creeps into me... im still really worried... i checked the symptoms... hmmm, it is somewhat the same... huhuhu.... i researched.... FUCK!!!

i really hate this feeling..... no.... im just being paranoid.... but, the signs are saying otherwise.... i just wanna die....

so i decided to take a 2-days leave this week, i think i deserve that naman...

and so i had the chance to go to Makati Med yesterday, i waited for an hour but it was almost 5pm and i had a meeting in the office... dun lang ako nabwisit sa mga pestend med reps... lalong tumagal ang pagiintay ko because of them.... cguro there were at least 15 med reps who visited that doctor... so 430 na, and I was still waiting, i decided to go back to the office na lang... besides, during my stay there, it seems the pain subsided na, so there's no need to see the doctor anymore...

earlier (wednesday), i had the chance to go back to the same hospital... i had no choice, thats the only hospital near my workplace... even if i hate going there because of the loooooong lines... at least in medical city, I would not need to wait that long....

and as usual, i waited for about an hour before i was entertained... i told my story... the personal medication... the fever... the pain... he diagnosed me... checked my ears, nose and finally, my throat... and the doctor found out that i had......

TONSILITIS

yipee!!!! my dilemma was finally over... paranoid nga lang talaga ako, hehehe... masakit lang sa bulsa ang gamot.... it will cost me a total of P1400 for the week-long medication.... ayan kasi... so talagang inde ka na makakabili ng bagong phone mo.... so sad.....

but at least, it was not what I was worried of, thats a good thing....

My New Phone

MY NEW PHONE.....

nah... i wish!!! but this is what im dreaming to have soon... hopefully, they are offering this here in the philippines already... and of course, i hope i the budget to get this phone...

initially, i wanted to get an iphone... but with all the reviews and bugs, i'm having second thoughts about it...

let's see what happens this december....

UAAP Championship Season 70

ANIMO LASALLE!!!!!

CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL THE
PLAYERS OF THE
MEN'S BASKETBALL TEAM!!!

VCD Collection

i have rewarded myself again... aside from the new shirt i bought last saturday... added four new titles to my collection of animated movies vcd...

The Wild

BUG'S LIFE

THE LION KING

FINDING NEMO

i'd be buying ice age 1 and 2 soon, and happy feet... plus ratatouille... hehehe....

Sykes Sportsfest

last September 9, 2007, our company had our Sportsfest... and one of their games was the Fiesta Fun games...


well, we should be competing with 10 other teams... there are 10 games... and every game, the most bottom team gets eliminated... amazing race ala survivor style kung baga....

the first games was sack race.... i was the last person of the 10 members.... and while i was jumping my way already to the obstacle, i noticed that there are only 3 teams left... now i did not know what happened to me... it might have been my adrenalin, i jumped to the finish line, coming from 3 feet away... and so we made it....

but much to my dismay, no team was eliminated because one team did not show up... haaaay, only if i knew, i should not have made so much effort for that last jump....

2nd game.... wataf#@&... all members will be lining up, and an orange will be pass from the first member to the next until it reaches the last member.... but there is a catch... the orange will be passed using the neck... no hands... kung baga, ang orange nakaipit sa leeg, at kukunin ito gamit din ang leeg.... san ka pa?!!? ganda diba....
at syempre nahirapan ung pinapasahan ko... pero ang sarap ng feeling, hehehe jowk!!!

sayang naman tlga diba? so ayun, natapos na rin kami sa 2nd game pa lang, hehehe.... we just ended up playing badminton for the rest of the afternoon....

babawi na lang ako sa bowling tournament namin, hopefully i will do good again.... haaaay.....
excited na ako, this Saturday na kasi un.... yey!!!

You Will Love Kids.....

the kid is soooooo cute!!! Whatever!!

need help with your math? then call for help...

Five Lessons... A Real Hit...

let me share with you a text message i received just this afternoon, and it really hit me... here goes...


Some thoughts to ponder on....

1. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.



2. What other people think of you is none of your business.


3. Time heals almost everything, give time.


4. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.



5. Don't compare your life to others.
You have no idea what their journey is all about.

Realizations:
1. maybe this is one of the reasons why i have been messing up my life at present... it is because i have not yet reconciled with my past, and this is what's holding me from moving on... it is easy to say that you have move on, but in reality, you will realized that you have not... how can one really move on? can i not just move on without having to look back at my past?... especially, if you don't want to go back to that past... we will see... let us let nature take its own course....

2. it is quite hard that you are already gay and to top that, you are paranoid... how can one really be free of negative thoughts?... one friend made me realized before, that we should really not think of what others think as long as you are not hurting others and crossing their paths...

3. well, i perfectly agree... as i've said, sometimes it is better to let nature take its own course... at this point, i guess, you know who i am talking about... (you should, try back tracking my post, iisa lang ang topic...), at times, cge na nga, most of the times, im kinda worried to see him in those places i think he would possibly be... kasi i guess, im not yet ready to see him in person... i dont know how to treat him.. anyway, time alone can tell.... i hope it will not take years the same thing with my other ex-partners...

4. everything happens for a reason... i would always remind myself of it... but if i will rephrase it in my personal belief... everything happens for a reason based on our decisions... biruan nga namin sa barkada... ginusto mo yan, kaya wag kang magreklamo...

5. each and everyone of us were created in such a way, that no two individuals have identical cell set (except of course, for twins, etc..).. that everyone has their own purpose in this world and it is up for them to find what that is... but then again, no man is an island... no matter how much separated our lives be, we are still connected to one another....

five lessons... that hit me....
five lessons... that i received just in time everything was a total mess...
five lessons... that was sent to me for a reason...
five lessons... that will guide me through this life's journey...

The Loooong Wait is Over

uhmmm... mina....

mina was also under my team during my last year of being a team lead... and she was also one of the best being the tenured at taking calls... undoubtedly, mina was one of my best agents... aba, syempre, cum laude ata yan.... hope she does not get mad at me broadcasting this, wabyu mina!!!

well, im just happy for you... that after sooooo many push and encouragements that i did just to let you decide to move up already, finally you did... well, actually, the desire to move up was there, however, you were really aiming for something different, and no matter what you do, you just cant get the position... which led to your disappointments and disastisfaction at work...

and finally, after doing a lot of reverse psychology, you finally decided to aim for a different position.. knowing that almost everybody in the group were already promoted... maybe you realized that it was already time... anyway, im glad that you are there already at your current post...

hahaha... i remember this photo, it was one of the best moments i had with you being part of my team... like, mama lhen, i never thought that i would be close to you, knowing that we had a slight misunderstanding when we were still part of our old account... your whole team was mad at me... hehehe... but again, that did not became an issue between the two of us... we clicked and i would say became good friends na rin, even until now, kahit inde nyo na ako niyaya sa mga lakad nyo... i sure do miss you minapot....

just keep up the good work in your new post ate... i know that you will do better and that account will never regret hiring you... kalimutan mo na ung old post na hinahabol habol mo, maybe this is the one for you... love your work and it will definitely love you back...

if you need anything, we are here to support you... misyu minapot...

See You Later, Asawa Ko...

asawa ko.....

last monday, one of my agents, mama lhen as we would fondly call her, left for dubai (i think, hehehe...) to work... it just saddens me, that i was not able to see her before she left... good thing that we sad each other last june in alabang town center while we were watching a movie, not knowing that it would be the last day that we will see each other, after two years that is....

lhen was one of my agents, the best there is in my team when it comes to quality and customer service... mataas nga lang ang AHT nya, but who in the hell cares, as long as the customers are happy, happy na rin ako...

but i still remember the time when i found out that you will be under my care, i was really intimidated of you... ako na team lead ang natakot pa sa yo... hehehe... sungit mo kasi tignan and i never think that we will be that close lhen...

do u still remember the time when i approached you at the end of the swimming pool during our outing... that was the best "pag-aminin" moment that i had... i called your attention and asked you to go there, we were there alone, and i told you that i would be telling you something.... and you thought that i would be proposing my feelings toward you at syempre nagulat ka when i admitted to you about my sexuality... sobrang funny tlga... and since then, we clicked and i became your asawa....


mama lhen, i will truly miss you... you are one of those guys that you think you would never be closed with because of your maldita look, but once they get to know you, they will see that you have a soft side too... and that's what i saw in you, what you see is what you get... you are a true person and an epitome of a true friend...

i will cherish all memories that we had together, the kulitan, baklaan moments, galaan, basta lahat ng bonding moments natin... remember what i told you thru text, wag kang makakalimot uh... and just in case, andito pa rin naman kami lagi for you eh... we all love you mama lhen.....

Raise Me Up

hehehe... i finally signed my confirmation papers with my current department... ive been with Sykes for almost 5 years now, and just this year, i transferred to our IS department as a business systems analyst... what is that? well, just ask me about it...

anyhow, i already got my raise... yehey!!! which means, more money to shop and for trips... hehehe....

i am aiming for a higher post next year... il stay with this post for a year, and then i will decide whether il move up or move out....

Just Another Ordinary Day

haaaayyyy.... this day is really boooorrrriiinggggg..... im still here at work, and im not doing anything... another day of being paid for doing nothing.... fuck shit!!! as if, i mind being paid for doing nothing, hehehe...

so what did i do for the past 6 hours? BROWSING!!! i think i have went thru all friendster profiles of my friends' friends already... never in my life, did i get tired of browsing....

to top that, my head aches.... im not sure if it is the diet that im doing that causing it or what, but i will go home without finishing my shift... well, what can i do, those are the perks of this job....

but i dont want this to go on like this... im tired of doing nothing... plus the diet that im doing is not helping me... plus im single... hahaha... jowk...

hope tomorrow would be a good day for me... it should be, it's thursday and nearing weekend already....

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And The Day Was Over

whew... what a busy day it was for me... and i thought i would be celebrating the luckiest day ( thats what they dsay..) in the millenium sleeping and enjoying my bed until i starve... but i was wrong...

1230 AM - got home from work... had to go home this friday since i have an out of town trip early saturday morning... since i was not able to report for work early, had to finish my shift until 10PM, and had to go straight home from gilmore, qc to bacoor cavite... what a thrill ride it is...

100AM - hit the sack... finally...

5:00AM - my mom was bugging me already... had to wake up even if my body still wants to stay in bed for the rest of the morning... but had no choice, stood up and went to the bathroom, to take a shower... got dressed... had choco for breakfast and off to Tagaytay.

625 AM - we were at the Pink Sisters Convent in Tagaytay... just in time for 6:30AM mass... by the way, we were celebrating our parents' 34th anniversary... heard mass... offered prayers... wrote my intentions... meditated...

730 AM - Josephine's Restaurant ... it is sooooo nice to be back, i have been wanting to eat here again for an eat-all-you-can breakfast feast... yum yum yum... im pretty sure, mabubusog tlga ako... i missed josephine's sooo much....

855 AM - called one of my old agents who will be attending the baptism to ask one of my agents who was going also to be my proxy for a baptism that i will be part of (as ninong...).... whew, problem solved, i do not need to be in QC by 10AM....

905 AM - received msg from my to-be-mare, baptism was cancelled... my inaanak was confined in delos santos hospital the previous night because of UTI...

915 AM - we were already full and could not take another bite.... got the bill... paid it... hehehe, buti na lang nagka-SL conversion last thursday, i have few extra bucks for this...

1000 AM - while we were on the road going home, sis called from Australia;asked dad to park the car to the side for a while... miss you sooo much chie... im sure, we would have been together during that time if you were only here... call lasted for 10 mins...

1055 AM - got into the van going to baclaran, because i had to attend a baptismal in quezon city... yeah, you read it right... i travelled that looooongggg.... what can I do, thats the negative side of living in a province, that is the reason why i rented my own place in pasig...

1135 AM - was in the MRT.... SHIT! i still dont have my prepaid ticket, you mean i have to fall in line just to get my ticket.... FUCKING SHIT!!! had no choice, waited for almost 20 mins.... if it was not for the cuties that passed by, i could have broke down waiting.... next time il have the chance of a shorter line, i will definitely get myself a prepaid ticket already...

1235 PM - arrived in Jade Valley... syempre sa niliit ng place, nawala pa ako... the room was in the third floor, i reached the fourth floor looking for the place... after finding the room, found my two old agents, sat in the table with them.... did not eat much... gosh, remember I came from an eat-all-you-can feast... i was still full by then...

135 PM - left the reception venue and headed off to the hospital... they were able to make arrangements to do the baptism in the hospital...

155PM - arrived in Delos Santos Hospital along E. Rodriguez Ave.

around 245 PM - baptism rites initiated... it feels nice to be a ninong again...

just before 4PM - left the hospital and decided to go home...

4 PM - was in MRT, southbound... decided to do some malling first in glorietta before going back to cavite again...

430 PM - was in Glorietta... did some window shopping... though i was looking for something that i hopefully would like and buy it... was almost going to buy a transformers toy, but the toy they had does not transform to it vehicle form... nah... syempre gusto ko ung nagtransform tlga, thats why they are called transformers in the first place, right?

640 PM - headed to MOA to take the ride going home to cavite...

700 PM - bought 2 small cakes from red ribbon for my parents.... it has been days or weeks, that i have been wanting to garb on sweets... ngaun, 2 pa, hehehe.... thanks to the conversion tlga...

a little after 8PM - got home and i was surprised with our dinner... we had sinigang na hipon, baby back ribs, meatless white pasta, and buttered shrimps... not a good combination though, i would agree with you on that... but what the heck, kakainin mo lang din nmn mga yan... so okay na rin...

... rested until 10PM...

10 PM - walked my dog around the subdivision...

1030 PM - got online and here i am now....


whew... considering that i only had 4 hours of sleep, luckily i made it still... and now i am finishing this blog so that i can hit the sack, because i just found out that i need to wake up by 10am again because the 'manicurista' will be coming over, and i need my toe nails and fingernails done again... naks mikey... seryosohan na tlga yan uh... i really cant do this anymore, my eyes are shutting by itself already while i was doing the revisions for this...

PS. i will share the pics once i have my bluetooth already...

last sunday, i finally have seen transformers in alabang town center with my family... as an avid fan of the cartoon version during the 80s and 90s, i was really excited to watch this film... wanted to see how michael bay interpreted the transforming of those vehicles to their robot form... was kinda worried at start because there were so many kids in the movie house, and they might create unwanted noise, but luckily they did not since i think those kids could not relate to the films just yet...

well, what can i say? michael bay really did a good job on this one... it had me held on to my sit for the entire 2.15 hrs of the movie... here are just some of my thoughts:

1. why was Bumblebee a camaro rather than a volks... they had two reasons... one, they were having a hard time to convert a bulky volks to its robot form... 2nd, volks did not allow it, plain and simple... oh well, it was volks' loss im sure....

2. Bumblebee was my favorite ever since, from its kid-like attitude from the cartoons to its loyalty to his friend... i love that scene the most, when he chose to stay with Sam Witwicky.... i so love him ever... hahaha....

3. why did they kill Jazz? he was the best car there.... being a pontiac at that... ei, inde pla... let me correct myself... of course, the best car was Ratchet, a Hummer H2.... the best!!! and the one that i will have some day... i wish!!!

4. why did Megatron never changed into a gun?.... i was waiting on how would they do it....

5. and all of the Decepticons had one color... Frenzy was not even blue, he was the BoomBox... or Starscream, as far as i can remember, he had a high pitch tone and a red streak on its chest (the head part of the jet)...

6. im sure it will have a part 2, Starscream escaped, remember?....

ei, dont get me wrong... i really like the movie... i so love it that i planned to visit a toy store soon to get myself a new toy... i promised myself i will, no matter how much it costs, i will definitely get one, even if i would need to charge it on my credit card.... hehehehe...


while pondering on how to end this blog... it just made me think that there are 'transformers' roaming around us... people who do not want to show their true colors... people who hide from the society afraid of being rejected... people who remain quiet amidst pain... people who keep the tears inside them thinking that nobody understands them... people like us...

but unlike the transformers, we have the ability to fight all our fears and worries that one day we will not need to hide our peculiarities and radiate to the whole world our true self... we have to remember that in every individual there are...

MORE THAN MEETS THE EYE....

DISCLAIMER: Pictures were taken from the official website of the mo vie.

You Are Cyclops

Dedicated and responsible, you will always remain loyal to your cause. You are a commanding leader - after all, you can kill someone just by looking at them. Power: force beams from your eyes

Which of the X-Men Are You?

You Should Be a Song Writer

You have the ability to evoke emotion, tell a story, and hook someone... In a very small amount of words, perhaps with some deft rhyming. Even if you can't write music, you can sure write compelling lyrics. Lyrics so good, people will have them stuck in their heads!

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

My Resting Place

as promised, here are the pics of my new apartment... actually, just my room, have not taken photos of the entire place yet, maybe after i clean it i will... my room is not that bongga, just so you know... but who cares, as long as i have my own room, i can sleep and rest well, that is fine... hehehe... oh well, here you go...


my bed...

my two large cabinets... i get to organize my clothes properly...

Movie Qoute 01

just because people treat you like a villain...
or an ogre or just some loser...
it does not mean that you are one...
the thing that matters most is what you think of yourself
if there's something that you really want or someone you really wanna be
then the only person standing in your way is...


YOURSELF...

- King Arthur
Shrek the Third

Sykes Summer Outing

June 16, 2007 - Sykes Summer Outing
yeah i know what is on your mind, isnt it too late to have a summer outing... i can see it in your eyes, it is mid-june already and why are u having your outing just now... oh well, that has been the same question that we have been asking the people from the office... until now we have not received any good answers as to why... oh well, let me just share what happened...

since the company has been banned from fontana and the 8waves last week was not successful, then there is no big venue that can handle around 5000 employees all at the same time other than Subic...

the company rented three hotels, legenda hotel, legenda suites and grand seasons hotel... the activity area was set up in the boardwalk area, near the bay area... there were games, darts, frisbee toss, water drop, free henna, free braids, free friendship bands, etc...


during the afternoon we had the games for the entire teams... it was a combination of all the games, plus scavenger hunt (ala amazing race) and scary-factor (ala fear factor). had tons of fun while playing this game. finally i get to experience an amazing race type of game and scary factor... had to decipher and analyze clues and look for certain items... for the first time in my entire life, i drank ampalaya shake, (of course, i had to do it, nobody in the team wanted to do it...)... what does it taste like? eeewweee, thanks to the adrenalin i had i was able to finished a half-full glass of that shake... but of course, i had to think that it was avocado shake because of its color... it was all worth it, we won 10K as our prize, give me more ampalaya shake diba?!....

for the dinner party, the buffet food was great... we had free beers plus the party was hosted by DJ Mo and Asia... it was really a good way of letting loose and relaxing and forgetting of all the negativities in life... it was indeed an Ibiza party... slept at almost 3AM, woke up at 9AM, had breakfast and rested again... we left subic at 12nn the following day...

Sharing Thoughts

Let me share with you a comment I recevied via email from one of the readers of my blog... And I have to post it, because there are lots of things from what he said that people tend to forget...

Thank you so much for sharing "yourself" via blog.

This much I can say, happiness will always be internal. Material things, physical connections, events and places may add to happiness but only on temporary basis. Happiness to me is that state of inner peace. One can achieve this by being honest to one's self...accepting our talents, strong po package...ints and weaknesses. We will never be perfect...yes, we can always improve (that's why we meet people who unbeknownst to us are mentors of our Life - starting with our parents, siblings, friends, etc)...but we will never be perfect. If we can accept this, we are on the right lane to happiness.

We must love ourself for what we are, and then...if we meet the "right" person it will be easy to share ourself. I think in a relationship, we share ourself...not give ourself. It should be a shared journey...two people with their identity intact. I don't believe in a relationship where two people become ONE. Each one should add to the relatioship because of their uniqueness...not because one wants the other to be someone who is not. One should love the other as a complete

Okay, this is a bit too much unsolicited opinion.

Personally, I look at people from the inside out rather than outside in.
I am financially stable, I have condo in the Malate area, I've traveled in many parts of the world and not bad looking...but these are just trappings. I am very trusting to people because I am honest. Although people have taken advantage of my generosity or kindness...I never diverted from being honest (to myself and others). Because I firmly believe that I am what I am now because of all the people I've met in my life thus far. Even those who just "used" me are still part part of the whole...so I have no regrets.

Edith Piaf at old age married someone very good looking in his twenties. Obviously the boy married for material reasons...but Edith summed it all up "non regrette rien" I REGRET NOTHING!

What a life!

I hope you would be enriched in your journey!


Thanks... I realized a lot about relationships with what you have shared....

Qoute 101

an ex sent me this qoute thru text...

Sometimes two people decide to be just friends
even if they still love each other...

and i often wonder why?
i suppose it's not love that'so hard to sustain...

but the COMMITMENT that complicates everything...

i wanted to reply but i am too tired having discussions, so i did not... this is why, i decided to put my thoughts in my blog instead, with this, i will not get any side comments, nor somebody who will negate what i have to say.... remember, this is my blog site, i can say anything i want to... hehehe....

for starters, i believe that for a relationship to work, it must have three things... LOVE, COMMUNICATION and COMMITMENT...


LOVE...
isn't it this is the sole reason why two persons decide to enter into a relationship? it is because they love each other...

with love, one can do things even those that they haven't done in their lives yet, just to please the person they love...
with love, people forget themselves and makes sure that their partner is their priority...
with love, one sets aside his beliefs and open his mind to other possibilities that his partner can offer him...

there are lots of things that one can do just because he LOVES this person....


COMMUNICATION...
as they always say, it takes two to tango... even tango dancers communicate among themselves while doing that dance... so much for two persons in a relationship... i cannot imagine a relationship without communication...

come to think of it, this does not only apply to romantic relationships, in any type of relationships that we have in our lives, communication is an important thing...

for without it, we cannot express our thoughts, emotions and ideas... with constant communicaton, two unique individuals try to understand each other's thoughts...

it is up to them how to effectively channel it...


COMMITMENT...
whats the purpose of you entering into a relationship if you do not have any plans of committing yourself to that person... to that person, you decided to love... to that person, you chose to be with... to that person, whom you want to share your life with... to that one person who have touched your lives, especially your heart, more than anybody could have done... with commitment, everything follows...

with commitment... you decide to love the person even if all of your friends tell you not to....
with commitment... you do things that will make this person happy...
with commitment... you talk things over when your life together starts to be shaky...
with commitment... you continue to hold on even if it is hurting, because you love person...
with commitment... you work things out with that person, so that things will not be that complicated for the both of you...
with commitment... you share your entire life with that person while still keeping your identity...
with commitment... you strive to be the best person for your partner...
with commitment... you give your trust to your partner no matter what the society dictates...
with commitment... you sacrificed everything, even to the point giving up your own happiness because what matters is that person is happy being with you...
with commitment... you put your mind, heart and soul to your relationship... you give your 100% to it... you share your happiness and love with that person...


Three things must be present in a relationship for it to last long... LOVE... COMMUNICATION... and COMMITMENT...

The 'Reviews' of the Week That Has Been

it has been a week since i last posted a blog and a lot has happened during the past week...

June 9, 2007
i moved out already from the room that i was renting with my last ex... it was really the end of a 20-month relationship... i dont know when will i see her again but this has to happen so that we can move on with our own lives...

enough of that...

the place... it is a two-room apartment, and i will be sharing it with a very close girl-officemate together with her sister and her sis' bestfriend... since they are all 3 girls, i will have one room to myself...

the room... well, i get to have two cabinets (the one installed in the room, and my folding cabinets)... i get to organize my clothes accordingly and there are lots of space for me to put in new clothes, hehehe... it felt like having a walk-in closet, un lang, it is smaller... since i dont have anybody to share it with, i get to design it the way i want it... and everything is in its proper place... ganyan tlga pag OC ang isang tao...

the living room... yey!!! we get to have a cable already... plus, i was able to bring our 20 inch tv from cavite to our new place... bigger tv with cable... the best!!!

the shower room... isa pang yey!!! shower na sya... mas masarap maligo pag me shower eh...

the kitchen... haaay, this is the sad part, it is too small that it is difficult to move around it... well, okay na rin, i dont cook naman eh...

i will post the pictures of my new place once i get to take photos of it... supposedly, my plan was to take pictures while moving out and in to the new place, dahil sa sobrang busy, inde ko na makuhang magpicture pa...



June 15, 2007 - Late Afternoon
i had my haircut... whoaaaahhhhh.... it is really short, but thats what i wanted... sulit ang binayad ko sa Menagé in Gateway, i've been wanting to try it there, but i thought it was too expensive...

but since our company would be having our outing on the 16th, kya i really needed to have my haircut...

the service... the best... they will really treat you like a royalty, hehehe... exagg ba? plus! they serve ice tea pa, and that was the best iced tea i have ever tasted in my entire life... now, you are thinking that i am exaggerating, but im not... try it for yourself...

the creative team... i cannot say a bad word to their service and talent... i brought a picture of the style that i wanted and voila!!! gayang gaya tlga... and he styles it not as exactly as in the picture, but he makes sure that it looks good on you...

what can i say?... you will see me more often having my haircut in Menagé...



June 16, 2007 - Early AM
i didnt go home anymore to pasig since we have to be back in the office early in the morning for our outing... my officemate invited me to go to Wensha Spa, a spa along timog, and spend the night there... and so we did... besides, i have been intrigued by his stories that happens in that spa...

the spa... well, it is quite old compared to city and lifestyle... ive been to city lifestyle for a couple of times and i enjoyed their service there... but with this spa, uhmm, i felt i was inside an old cruise ship, the only difference is, everybody is just in their robes... but one good thing about this spa is that they offer buffet... so with almost the same price as city lifestyle, you get to enjoy their almost-ok buffet...

the wet area... again, comparing it with city lifestyle, the latter has better and more organized wet area... with Wensha, everybody can see you while you are taking a shower, and you have to sit while doing so... i felt like a fish inside an aquarium while i was inside the steam and sauna room... they only have two pools, one is hot and the other is like freezing cold... and you cannot do laps, its like, with just one stroke of a swimmer, he reaches the other end already...

the service... since i was planning to have my toes done for the outing, i opted for their foot massage with manicure and pedicure... the price is quite good, you just have to add a little, you get to have a foot massage, with a little of body massage, plus you get your nails and toes done... good deal...

the masseur... uhmm... next topic please... oh well, he proved to me that all the things i heard about the spa was true... even with the other guests around, and the girl who was doing my nails beside him, he had the guts to almost touch my groin... what can i do, im just a human, my so-called 'pet' reacted.... haaaay, but it really feels nice to be massage by a guy (my three previous massages were done by girls...)... by the way, i will be coming back for more, hehehe....

the food... uhmmm, as ive said earlier... it is almost good.. but what can you do, that is what is offered, you dont have a choice, not unless you want to get starved or order from the list of their expensive menu?... it is your choice...

overall, i had good experience with the spa... and they can expect me going back there... why of course, im getting the masseur who did me the last time, hehehe...



after all these reviews, let me take a minute to review my life... i have been through a lot, tears have been shed and laughter shared, experienced pain and triumphed each trials, had confronting arguments and endless under-the-sun talks, friends known and letting go of a partner... every individual experiences these in any moments of their life, but these happen not for without any reason... we may not know the reason now, but eventually, if we try to look at the bigger picture of life, we will have that understanding why the need to experience such...

a new home... new hairdo... massaged... had my nails and toes done... plus, i had a henna of my chinese name on my right hand... this is enough for me to say that im REFRESHED and RENEWED... these things symbolizes the new me, the new me who decides to close the old chapter of his life, and starts to move on, happy and succeeding...


THE NEW ME....
... can now close the old chapter of my life...
... can now move on and start anew...
... can now forget the pain that the last episode of my life brought me...
... can now let go of the tears meant for this one person whom i truly loved...
... can now set that person free from my heart and open it for a new and better partner...

PS. i'm a person work-in-progress... i do not claim that im already perfect... but trying hard to improve my weaknesses and overcome my frailties as a person...

*** Relationship 101 from Atchie ***

its 1:05 AM, i was about to sleep already, but i could not let this evening pass by without having to post on this...

a little background... i just ended a 20 month relationship, four days from now, it would be a month since we broke up... it is not just a simple relationship, it was a live-in relationship... reason? because the person fell out of love and can no longer give me the assurance and the security that i seek in our relationship.... partly it is my fault also, but, the person admitted it, she no longer love me the same way as before... when asked why, she did not give me any answer... though painful, i decided that we really have to end it...

with that, and knowing the truth last saturday, made me think that if im doing the right thing in a relationship, if as claimed by my partners, it is not my fault, it is theirs, then how come my relationships dont last?

earlier, i had a chance to chat with my sister who is in Australia right now... she knows about me, (phew... buti na lang, parents ko na lang ang prob ko...).

it was the most wonderful talk i had with her... it started with the usual kamustahan, updates with work, her health and ours... eventually, i dont know how, but it lead us to talking about me being paranoid... next thing i know, she was already giving me an advice that it is not healthy to be paranoid especially in a relationship.... "oh chie, please stop talking about relationships... i understand what you want to imply but not now please...."

i had no choice, but i opened up to her.... she already had a feeling why i was leaving my current place and looking for a new one...

i want to share some lines that she said that really struck me...
- "makaka apekto yan sa mga relationships mo kahit sa ibang tao kung mauuna ka ng takot na me ginawa ka kung ala kang response from them" (Translation: It will affect your relationships with people if you would think negatively if you did not get any replies from them.)

- "is your being worth every penny to be in a relationship that you are in".

- "you should never let yourself na on the doubt side... kasi at the end, pag me problem kahit di ikaw ang me kasalanan ang magiging pakiramdam mo ikaw ang me kasalanan" (Translation: dont let yourself be on the doubting side. in the end, you would always feel that it is your fault for every problem that you will encounter.)

- "and don't ever go out seeking security, assurance and commitment"

- "kasi the moment na you start seeking out love, it will take advantage over you..."

- "it's different to be proud of yourself, but you should always have faith in yourself"

- " darating yung kung kelan gusto ni Lord, wag mong hanapin, kasi it just may cause you heart ache"

- "you shouldn't be in the giving end always, kasi masasakal yung tao"

- "especially in our society when good ones are in the closet" - oh so true!!!

- "you emotions wll only be strengthened at its roots"

- "just remember that the right person is just around the corner"


very very nice words chie.... i can really use a hug right now... i thought right away, patay, i will be crying myself to sleep tonight... but after thinking about it, sabi nga ni atchie, is it worth your penny?.... nah!!! love you so much chie.... looking forward to the time that we will be together there in australia... by the way, i was able to drive from alabang town center to our place... i know im getting there... tonight Alabang... Next month: Makati!

First Ever

Whew.... this is my first entry, im not so much of a writer, or a blogger... but with what i am feeling and undergoing right now, i just think that keeping a blog would help me stand up and move on with my life...

i tried this so many times, i even forgot that i already created a profile... luckily, i still remember what username and password i used to register... hopefully, this time i would diligently update this... this will be my diary... the keeper of my thoughts, the album of my pics, the sharer of my ideas, and the mirror of who I am...

hope this works... hehehe...